Dear Blog,
So, as I mentioned in the last entry, Gerard and Bryce got me a new engagement ring. I still feel horrible for losing the first ring. I hear about brides losing their engagement rings and thinking they were just scatter-brains. But now, in their defense, it’s hard to always keep track that ring!!
I mean, I remember putting it on in the morning and I don’t remember ever taking it off! I didn’t notice it was gone until the evening.
:( sad face.
The story about the new ring is pretty cute. I was walking in the mall with Bryce after school. We stopped by a wrist-watch store so he could get this watch fixed. Across the street from the Watch Store is a Jewelry store. Gerard and I already have our wedding rings (or wedding bands) picked out, but I figured it would be proper that Bryce get a matching ring as well. He, after all, will be living with us on and off during the years. We decided to see what ring designs they had. While we were looking around, Bryce showed me a beautiful engagement ring. It had 2 little diamonds on the side and a “big” diamond in the middle. It was breath taking!!
“Do you like it?” Bryce asked.
“I think it’s beautiful. But I’m not looking for an engagement ring. I feel horrible for loosing the one Gerard gave me.” I answered.
“Well, that’s true. If we got you a new ring, you might lose it again.” Bryce said. I knew he was joking, but it still stung. I didn’t think about the ring again, but I didn’t see the last of it.
That night at Bryce and Gerard took me out to dinner. Nothing fancy, a regular burger/salad place. It was a very chilly night, Gerard was nice enough to lend me his coat so I could keep warm.
“Hey, Rae. Could you hand me my cigarettes? The box is in the pocket inside my coat.”
“Sure.”
I put my in the pocket of his coat, which I was wearing, but instead of putting out what I thought was his cigarettes, I ended up pulling out a little velvet black box. I stared at it for a couple seconds shocked and afraid to know what was inside it.
“What is this?” I asked.
“Open it Desirae” Bryce said encouraging me.
“No…”
“Just open it love. I promise it won’t bite” Gerard said guiding my hand to open the box.
I opened it very slowing…inside was the ring that Bryce and I had seen at the store earlier.
“Oh my gosh! You guys!” I said as I tried handing them back the box. “I can’t accept this! It’s too much!”
“No, it’s not too much.” Bryce took the box and handed it to Gerard. “It’s not exactly what you think. It’s not a diamond. It’s a cubic zirconia. It’s something a bit more special. In the dark, the middle stone looks white, like a diamond. In the sunlight, the middle stones turns a purple color and on hazy days or inside places the stone turns a pink color. Three colors, representing a the future family of all three of us together.”
Gerard pulled the ring out of the box, held it up to me so I could see it and then placed it on my finger. I started crying. Once again, he had engraved on the inside of the ring “I will always love you.” That had become our phrase. Our promise to one another… an honest love.
Flashback to engagement day:
He pulled it out of the box and handed it to me. As I looked at it, I saw something engraved around it. “I’ll always love you.”
“You had it engraved?” I exclaimed. He nodded, smiled as he put the ring on my finger and kissed me.
End of flashback.
Gerard held my hand and hugged me as I thanked him and Bryce over and over for such a beautiful detail.
I am taking such good care of this ring. I am enjoying seeing the color change, and with each change, I think of them. I don’t deserve this much love from two men. But for some reason they love me and I know I couldn’t love them anymore.
Till next time.
XOXO
Desirae
